From the time I was a little girl I was a "performer." I would get this step stool thing at my grandmother's house, put on my Annie wig and sing for her dinner guests. Side note, I am tone deaf. None the less, I belted out those lyrics with confidence. I thought I was a super star. As of late? Not so much. My parents always said I was destined to be famous, that said, did they mean like Taylor Swift famous or a Bonnie type famous? Guess time will tell. I am a firm believer th

A person who truly loves you should admire you like a piece of art. They should hang you on a wall and just stare at you and smile. They should love the view, and enjoy every minute. Because they love, they enjoy you. They should treasure you. We are all a Mona Lisa. Beautiful to some, horrific to others, none the less, enjoyed and applauded by those who choose to. The people who love you should put you in a frame, and under glass, because they know you deserve to be protecte

It was in our silence that we shouted for each other. It was in our secrecy we kept our solace. Our laughter is where we located our lives, our love, and our levity. It was in our intimacy for each other that we found intrigue and intelligence. It was always intense, but it was ours, and ours alone Our tribulations? Ours. Our smiles? Ours. Our standards? Ours. Inside jokes? Ours. Our triumphs? Ours. In our silence we found solitude and safety. In our secrets we discovered ou

Grief is love. It is just love that you can no longer give to a place where you so desperately want it to go. Grief is all of that unspent love that ends up gathering in the corners of your eyes, which ends up spilling onto your cheeks at a moments notice. Grief is a map that led you to a destination you didn't want to go to. Grief is a silence you never realized could shout. Grief is the presence of an absence you could never have imagined you would miss. Yet grief is also t

My appetite hasn't been great as of late. A few days back I found chicken kievs at the grocery store, I nearly lost my shit. I haven't been able to find it in years. My mom would make them as a treat. I bought almost every box. As my kids were trick or treating I figured I treat myself in an empty house. I made rice and that delicacy of chicken. Once it was ready I was so excited. The minute I took it out of the oven it fell on the floor spilling out all of that flavored butt

When we are born, we are innocent, and filled with it; purity. It is through the many human conditions we endure that can and often times does steal it away. Birth, Death, Sickness, Relationships. I have lost faith in a lot of different ways, but I also am trying NOT to lose it at the same time. Talk about juxtaposition. I have realized that happiness can show itself as tears of joy and also tears of sorrow. God have I found out these past few years through of all the above s

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