Tricked.

If I am going to be tricked, I would rather it be by the devil I know.

Than the one I don't.

I would rather readjust my crown and look towards the future, than continue to settle.

I am done with mediocre.

I am beyond being merely satisfied.

I am ready to be celebrated.

All. The. Time.

I am done with lies, and liars.

Masks.

Excuses.

I am ready for truth.

Ownership.

Honesty.

I am learning how to be patient.

Through the trials and tribulations of life.

Tests, I am continuing to be served, yet ones, I never asked for.

For a class I never signed up to take.

Questions and situations I don't need or want.

But this reality allowing me to see how I am appreciating that I can be even stronger and more intact than even I had thought.

More than anyone gave me credit for.

Especially those who left.

Chiefly, those who have abandoned me.

I find myself seeking a new truth.

Knowing I am beautifully chaotic.

Embracing it.

Understanding that how my story started, ended with you.

That with my madness comes beauty.

Art.

Wonder.

Awesome.

Seeing that what I need, and want, are different than what I deserve.

Astutely aware that I am worthy of the best.

Understanding I need to be accommodating, but not to deceit.

Surely not to subpar.

I need to be desired.

I am worthy to be deserved.

Totally desired.

Acutely aware that it will occur.

Conscious that it just needs time.

And I am ok with that.

Xoxo,

C.