The Things Left Said.

When people die we often think of the things we never said to them.

More often times than not, I recant the things I did say and did.

And I cringe.

The things I wish I could take back?

Infinite.

The stuff I wish I had conveyed differently?

Unimaginable.

The arguments over stupid shit?

Forever and a day.

So to the people I have loved and lost, I wish there were many things I could tell you; specifically about taking back the hurtful words I spewed.

The anger about the circumstances proved to be a stronger pull to my words than my love.

And they were bitter.

For that, I am so sorry.

Please know, there are a million more things I wish I could take back, rethink, and reimagine into something that would prove to be the loving comments and sentiments in which I originally meant, but didn't have the where with all, to convey it properly at the time.

So for all those sentiments I WISH I had said, I will take a moment to take back all the things I wish I hadn't said.

And there are A Lot.

The stress, the hurt, and the reality of these situations, took over my mouth.

But I never left.

My actions never stopped.

I never gave up.

I showed up, time and time again.

That said?

Please forgive all the things I did say; but know that I was doing my best to make up for those words while making sure my actions never faltered.

One foot in front of the other.

Humbled silence in the interim.

Xoxo,

C.