The Last Goodbye.

I wasn't able to officially say goodbye to my mother in person because it was the height of Covid.

Or I guess I could say I could have, but was paranoid and trying to protect three kids from a monster disease no one understood.

Fuck 2020.

That haunted me something awful.

I recently went to see my partner, my love.

Something in my gut said go, NOW.

So I did.

After I left?

I got a call and found out he died an hour later.

And while I wasn't able to see my mother before she left, as the good Catholic girl I am, I got her a Priest, her last rites, and I told her it was OK to be with my dad.

She too, died an hour later.

It was like they both waited for me before they left.

To go on their way to greener pastures I suppose?

Now that I think about it, I'm a goddamn crossing guard.

Making sure everyone gets to the other side.

I'm sorry, but both parties in this story would find this analogy funny.

Love you both!

Anywho....

Heartbreak?

I can't even begin.

He was wonderful and magical.

Quite frankly, he reminded me of my father.

Quiet. Sweet. Personable.

Thoughtful and loyal.

The world got a bit darker, but the heavens?

Much brighter.

I now have another guardian angel.

Not one I wanted, but one I suppose, I needed.

Lord knows I could all use the help I can get.

That being said I drove nearly 4 hours to see him without my license or any money.

I didnt realize it until I got there because they asked for it.

Once I did get to see him, I regaled my story and he opened his eyes and squeezed my hands.

He knew, and loved that I am the hot mess I am, and literally embraced it.

He wasn't able to speak, but he let me know in everyday possible he heard it all.

He never got mad for my various projects or chaos, he just laughed and smiled.

Those dimples? Those blue perfect eyes?

They will be missed, as will you.

Thank you thank you thank you.

We managed to fit forever into four years.

Just please look out for the kids and I.

I love you I love you I love you.

Xoxo,

Your Queen of Hearts.