My Bluejay.

I always thought Bluejays were bad.

I always imagined Cardinals as the good ones.

The ones that symbolized reincarnation and were meant to show love and as a symbol of those who had passed.

But I realized something.

When he got too sick for me to care for him and he was not with me, all I saw were Bluejays.

It made me weary.

I saw so many in fact, that I looked their symbolic meaning up.

I came to find out that...

Bluejays represent good fortune, strength, guidance and change.

Lord knows he did all of that for me.

So after that, I looked forward to seeing Bluejays.

In my mind, it meant he was close and checking in.

I even told him this, and we laughed about it.

We laughed a lot.

And I mean a lot.

He had a great sense of humor.

Anyways...

He fought the battle, but I will never let him lose the war.

He deserves so much more than that, and I will give it to him a thousand times over.

My heart has been shattered into a million pieces.

So to my Bluejay, please forever know that when I see one, I see you.

And I will know that you are reminding me that you are there to lead me down a path of guidance and good fortune.

Hey you!

I also know that when I see two Cardinals, they have a different message, one that is protecting and guiding me as well.

Hi Mom and Dad!

Still here fyi (Barely)!

I guess God said the aviary needed some more diversity.

I just wish he didn't need diversity this much.

So, to yet another angel God has collected from and for my life; you got your wings my love, but yours my sweetheart, are blue.

Just like your eyes, gorgeous.

I hope you can continue to guide me as I feel so very lost right now.

I love you I love you I love you.

Kissy kissy Kissy.

Always.

Xoxo,

Cynthia.