Four Years Or Forty?

So I caved.

I said once he left I would never see him again.

We both agreed to it in fact.

Lie.

I like to tell myself a lot of them, and apparently so did he.

But I had to see him.

It was fate.

Our whole experience and relationship?

Wonderful.

Magical.

Pure.

Easy.

We had always needed each other since that first day.

It just fit, we just fit.

Fate I suppose.

I also like antiques, and he was much older.

I know you'll smile at joke that my darling.

We established a bond that was so true and effortless.

So I felt in my heart that on that day when he was in offical hospice care, that he needed me, so I knew I needed to be with him.

My gut kicked in.

Sometimes it gets me into trouble.

Other times into fantasy.

None the less....I got in in car at 6am and just drove.

My daughter noted that I had not left the house in 24 days prior to this trip, thank you life360.

I think that may be my new lifelong record.

Anyways...it got me thinking...

Sometimes you don't need forever to realize, and experience true love.

Sometimes you can meet the right person, and that can mean that one day can fulfill a lifetime.

He proposed to me THREE times, and gave me three rings!

I guess you can say I am a catch.

Just kidding.

I waited for the biggest diamond he gave me before it was on the books.

I know you are laughing about that my sweetheart, and I know you know that is 💯 not true.

I just needed to make you work for it haha, and boy did you, no again just kidding, I am head strong and picky.

Eitherway he stuck it out, and stuck with me, and vice versa, he wasn't exactly a picnic either haha.

He himself came with some serious baggage, so I am going to pat myself on the back for not running for the hills for that one.

Anyways, third time was a charm.

And to me that means, we were meant to be.

The third, and final time he proposed, he wore my Dad's sweater while he got down on one knee; at my parents house no less.

He was the sweetest, and yes, I am toughest, but I finally said yes.

Truth be told I never said no, I said yes every time.

He was impossible to say no to.

The third time was the charm, but so was he.

Lies? Yeah I said yes every single time.

He was always charming, me?

Jury is still out, and dont ask my kids for their answers, lord knows what they will say.

Sometimes you can find your forever in a day, and live your destiny in a week.

True love is complicated like that.

But it is also purely that simple with the right person.

Nothing should be difficult with true love.

It should prove to be delightful.

Love will be delicious and easy with the right person.

I think the right person doesn't give you enough hours in the day, minutes in an hour or days in a week.

They remain thirsty for you, and you for them.

The right person will find your quirks amazing and not annoying.

The right person should be able to see the trouble that may "be you", or that your "hardness or difficulties" may be "work", but the right person will stick around because they see that your truth is magic.

They will travel to get to you, and see the potential that YOU possess.

They will make the journey to YOU because they see that you are inherently, awesome.

The right person will see your bright and intensity as intriguing, and not as a burden, but rather as a beacon.

The right person will see your chaos and creativity as cheerful.

Your honesty as hubris.

Your humor?

Happy and cheerful .

So thank you my darling for showing me what I deserve, but also what I am missing without you.

Thank you for showing me what I need,

require, and deserve.

In the meantime, I'll continue to adore you.

And I trust that you will bring someone to me who will see what I bring to the table again.

In the meantime, the Notebook has nothing on us.

Kissy kissy kissy.

I love you I love you I love you.

Xoxo,

C.